learning about scarring

grab a burning hot piece of iron: just because it burns me doesn't mean i have to drop it.
grab the girl i love: just because she makes me feel alive doesn't mean i shouldn't drop her.

Don't Mind Me

when i was 11 or 12, i learned that it was my decision whether or not to react to any given stimulus. when i say learned, i mean internalized and generalized to all of my functioning. pain no longer made me flinch.
it took a few years before i realized that life behind an invisible wall was pretty unfulfilling.
i've never gotten out from behind it.

Hey!

i can no longer remember what i was going to write here.